I haven't been blogging. Msn's not working. I fixing the problem while blogging. Somehow, my emotions are not stable yet, that's why i hasn't been blogging.
Why are emotions unsettling ? BecoZ my heart has yet to recover from de incident so long. It's becoz another blow was dealt. not returning to fulfill my wish. I dun wan to bring up, but it's really terrible to see ur dream shattered right infront of you.
So, far... 2 dreams bahs. Shattered into pieces, that broke my glass heart. I m unable to hold much of my emotions, that's why i choose not to blog that much.
Since things that are broken before, they will nv be the same.
Heart, is the one thing that i can nv understand.. i tried to hold back, but i guess it was too much to be hold.
Perception difference was what i tink i m. I'm juz being childish over some stuff ? or being naive once again ? M i wrong to believe in somethings that seems to be so ? Or.. perharps there is another side to things ? It juz seems like i really dunno what to say.
Was it juz fate to work under you and succeed fer once ?
I really tink there's alot of difference in things. I juz tink so. How can u prioritise things that are less important ? are there even enough reasons to redeem you of my discrimination against you ?
Furthurmore.. it seems like there's not juz once of violation. N, i juz dunno how to put it. Is it that one is being over unsensitive to other's feelings? or juz that, i m compromising too much when i keep my mouth shut.
some people dun realise who they hurt when they speak
Something lighter perharps, regards everyone. Ms Gan was in exceptionally good mood ytd, saying life's little lesson. Everyone muz have had their own opinions abt it. I guess so bahs, everyone knew, childhood would only be the time whereby life is carefree, unbounded by the terrifying backstabs and underhand tactics. It might have already started for some of you, but it's nothing new. In a few years, university will come.
eventually, those who dun learn, learn the hard way..
hais.. reminds me of someone. I HOPE you learn it this year and stop acting cute. =X Or m i wrong to say so ?
As much as i doubt my judgement of ppl now, here's something i have to say.
By any chance, if u hear lau wen hui spreading rumours abt me regarding this 2 gals in particular, kay yoke and pei wen, pls give him a flying kick or punch. It's not why i'm so concerned over him spreading tis kind of crap over at school. Rumours, have i not had enough since sec 1 ? From sec 1, kana tease by the class all de way to sec 3 juz becoz my pants were so short like mini skirt liddat. BoO ... Sec 3 on at least better life. De reason is becoz, I HAD ENOUGH! I almost gave him a punch ytd, becoz too much hatred was gathering inside my veins.But i chill down and relax, becoz i realise i hasn't got so agitated since maple ing. =X KS. It doesn't really makes much sense to you or anyone else but if you wanna try understand it's becoz those 2 were those who lend me a hand when my world was plurge into a thick darkness. Many other people helped too wif them. However, since wen hui pointed them out, i realise gradually what was de connection behind my hatred and de rumours. it's becoz of what they say to make me neturalise the feeling of hopeless ness, in short, it means that whenever you speak of them, my mind jumps to de past. N i had wish to let go of the past. Wen Hui, you are making things v. contridicting fer me. That is why i will not hesitate not to control myself any more. Promos are coming. I cannot let what happened before happen again...
I guess that is all for now. It's 11+. Though i wasted 3 hrs at trickster, i m still not really quite fine. Hais~
Yao fang Kai shi bu jian dan de yi jian shi...
Wished for my old maple days.... wished for my old school days...
